NB: this is from my personal archive of poetry.
Closed inside my mind
I feel so tight
intwined
oversized
in doubt
no one to shout
no one to shudder
chartered and begotten
I want to belong
I don’t feel a part
Of this life
anymore
It’s not me
It’s not me
To feel this way I am so unfree
To feel this way I am so unfree
Make me whole
shadows you cast
the darkness is sort
the blackness of nought
the shades of shimmered shame
I shielded by my own innocence
my exposure is a discourse
a thinking sin-course
I no longer can stand it
I want no more part of it
I have to be free from it
It’s not me
It’s not me
To feel this way I am so unfree
To feel this way I am so unfree
Make me whole
moonrise
moonrise
moon shall rise tonight
moonset
moonset
moon shall set tonight
and in the darkness
just before dawn
there is a human
whose thoughts are lost and forlorn
whose night did not pass
whose name is known
was a mighty warrior shot down in the gloom
It’s not me
It’s not me
To feel this way I am so unfree
To feel this way I am so unfree
Make me whole
I need to express myself
I need to be free
I feel no longer this way about me
Take me home
Take me out
Take me to my love
Or just shoot me then shout
Let me make
My own mistakes
shelter me no more
from the world of the beef stake
the slaves who make shoes
the payers of rules
the knights who say ni
the seamless cloth
approach to management
the philosophy of dais
deus ex mechana
nullus anxitas
nill combustomus pro fumo
Closed inside my mind
I feel so tight
intwined
oversized
in doubt
no one to shout
no one to shudder
chartered and begotten
I want to belong
I don’t feel a part
Of this life
anymore
I am no longer hidden
