City observer 117ATR4

A city has but branches of the commoners

Paved over with the solid tiles

I’m only inside their nests observing their movements, obsessions right and left

They seem to like to spread them up and out

Build a metal roof and add more cement

Move around like ants though none is the queen

They seem to congregate just to be teamed

Every one of these nests is a little different

Some have tall metal buildings in which they seem to collect their food and then go to smaller ones they sleep in

Others mix them in almost chaotic ways

But never are they confused by this the locals seem to just imbue the knowledge to younger ones

Occasionally they travel between the nests, sometimes to visit, sometimes to stay

Today I noticed they use little lights to help guide them in their ways

Are they afraid of the dark or just unable to see?

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Animals as Elements: 45-46 Rhodium Beewolf & Palladium Horse

Rhodium is a rare earth metal that is often used to keep various other more volatile silver colored metals from corrosion. It also plays a part in catalytic converters in cars and other petroleum based engineers. It’s also used to measure Neutron Flux in nuclear power plants.

The Beewolf is a wasp species that specifically feeds or lays it’s eggs specifically in bees. It’s hunting is not very much like the wolf, mostly being a solitary wasp. It’s similarity to rhodium is mostly in this behaviour to be a loner, rhodium doesn’t really react and is very none corrosive.

Palladium is similar in its use in catalytic converters. It’s also a metal with heavy investment stock and interest in capture by recycling. It is the first part of a car to be recycled due to its rarity.

The Horse is another animal that attracts heavy investment an attention. Almost completely domesticated, the horse is now bred to race but it used to be humman’s main beast of burden. Though often bred selectivity for multiple purposes. Like Palladium they are a considerable resource that we may not treat in the most humane way at times.

Resident Animal

I’m tempted not to state my interest

Moons sky brings me back to reality

Barren buildings and owned killings

Faces swapped so none can see

Masks are commonplace and I know them more by this icon than a so called real face

Mulling over my inability to make my way

Yoga music playing on the railway

I have a mask as seen by you

No one else knew that my mask was so true to my real face

Brilliance from the knife spliced into silver flesh, flesh of the new

Splashed on the rocks and a darker rotting core-flute, blue blood, red blood, all mix

We all woke, mention ash falling on asleep birds

Climbing stairs is my new pastime

Animals as Elements: 43-44 Technetium Doractoma Dresdensis & Ruthenium Rufous Whistler

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Technetium is a weird element that only exists in very very small quantities on earth. Mostly in amongst high concentrations of uranium. It’s a very unstable in general and the only elements that has to be produced artificially (its name means artificially made). Dorcatoma Dresdensis is a specific beetle that lives in dead wood, much like Technetium lives in “dead” uranium until it decays further.

Ruthenium is a metal mostly used to harden and stop other metals from tarnishing. It’s also often used in such things as forensic science (fingerprint dust) and electroplating. It only oxidizes under the right conditions due to its unusual electron shell configurations.

The Rufous Whistler is not a Robin, being a slight example of convergent evolution. It can be migratory in Australia but isn’t in New Caledonia. Like Ruthenium it travels only under the right conditions.

Dreams and fear

On the ivory steps, Phobos wept in his melancholy rage seeking new fear

Morpheus in his technicolour Dreamcoat, stepping across from the marble quarry smiling like a madman

I’m your new best friend, all thief of the night they call me, I’ve adapted

Hope still sits, in their ivory hall trying all she can to hide from me

You don’t need her, you can take no for an answer

But you are master, dream lord, my superior, you do not know what it is like, you will long be here, as dreams won’t cease but fear, fear can be destroyed by hope

She is indeed a destroyer, like yourself, but only a seeker of anew which, you love secretly here on her ivory steps

What if I could tell you the mortals can need you as much? Do I let you both in the dreaming castle?

Well, I would be able to exist as long as you, as her. I would only ever love her from afar but I would still be able to love her.

This the coat was drawn upon the wholeness and all their present retired to a castle were fear, hope and dreams lived for a long long time

Animals as Elements: 41-42 Niobium Sardine & Molybdenum Highland Brush Mouse

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Sardines are sometimes a little hard to define. There are 200 or so species of Clupeid that make up what are generically called Sardine. Originally named columbium, Niobium is so named after Niobe the daughter of Tantalus. She eventually turned into stone, weeping for her children whom almost all Artemis and Apollo killed after she boasted how lucky she was to have so many blessings (daughter of a goddess with 14 children and apparently a very well endowed and virile husband, whom also built Thebes). What the hell does this have to do with sardines? Well, Niobe had a cult in Sardinia and in Turkey (where she was turned to stone). There was a temple to her in Sardinia but I can’t find any reference to its continued existence in the modern day. These cultists existed well before the documentation and authorization if the Greek religion let alone the roman one. Both civilizations conquered each other a number of times over the centuries. However, Niobes tie to Sardinia and sardines seems relevant to this day.

The Highland brush mouse is a species of mouse native to Papua New Guinea, it and the other Brush mice of New Guinea are in naming mythology somewhat how the island nation got it’s name. It’s completely untrue as the name actually comes from a Spanish explorer who remarked on the similarity between the native population and those belonging to the Portuguese colonised areas of Guinea. Similar confusion got Molybdenum its name, first thought to be lead, and given the greek word Molybdos for its name until its full separation as a pure element in the 18th Century.

Just you say, I’m sorry darkly

There’s a cat sitting on the asking to see you

To say mice have taken over the parliament of owls

The shallow black waters running in the creeks and valleys, so nothing can be drunk.

and I have a home that I have a hawk down into the grass

I heard from the frogs you had a quickie at the gym

thinking is I think he wouldn’t stay here with the others

Berries won’t come in the droughts that have harmed us

Blood has spilled as the carnivores have even starved

Yet all the mice have done, all the mice has won is a deadly fight for life

Just you say, I’m sorry Darkly.

Animals as Elements: 39-40 Yttrium Apollo Apollofjäril & Zirconium Zebra

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Yttrium is a rather odd element, like many rare earth transition metals its ability to form alloys and hide in large bonds with other more common elements is legendary. Once you finally do get it by itself it’s used in LEDs and cathode ray tubes makes it a very useful to modern technology. Of course now LEDs are more common, cathode ray tubes are now being melted down to source an otherwise elusive element. It’s named after the town Ytterby in Sweden, which is were the Apollo Apollofjäril comes in as a match. This purple loving butterfly is one of a huge number of varieties in its family, but this one lives in Sweden near the town of Ytterby.Zebras are large herbivores related distantly to the Donkey and Horse. Living in savanna and grassland in Africa has made this beast flighty and difficult. Zirconium not to be confused with Zircon or Zirconia (both to do with crystals containing this element) is a ductile when pure, but brittle when dilute and highly flammable metal. It’s used in crystals, an alloy and as a coating but not without consistent care and handling. It’s difficult nature makes it a perfect candidate for the Zebra.

Animals as Elements: 37-38 Rubidium Carp and Strontium Whale Shark

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Carp is both an important food fish as well as an invasive pest; it can live for months in very muddy, low oxygen or iced water using a different metabolic channel, often able to outlive and outlast the native fish. It can grow to reasonably large sizes and is usually a predator of native fish and other smaller aquatic creatures as well as eat other available food. Rubidium is a room temperature, liquid state alkali metal that also boasts the longest living isotope of 87 Rb that has a half-life that is longer than the life of the known universe (49 billion years!). They are a match as both are useful in their way but also potentially dangerous and destructive.

The Wale Shark is a filter feeder shark that has grown to massive sizes. Like other large animals it’s size requires it to be close to constantly eating food.

Strontium is often absorbed in animals and plants like Calcium and it can be substitute it in some cases. When radioactive material has been released isotopes of Strontium is often one of the biggest issues for cleanup and containment. In the past it and isotopes of Iodine are the hardest to get rid of and the most concerning as they are readily absorbed by the body from eating contaminated foods. Here they do untold damage, causing cancer and deformities.

A Wale Shark then matches with Strontium as a filter feeder, it eats a little bit of radioactive material, if this increases we are likely to no longer see them.

Concenteena pantomine brushes

Damn

Blue the distance

Convergence we gather/crosses we shatter

I wish I was bulletproof on the tune player

Does it matter? Rafters/plots pantomime horse slayer

Cram

Leave this wish ant

Apple tastes, butter grace/fly buzzcut shone in the race

Moon kisses her mace. She wields it with all her grace

Flavour/silver bottle dies in a haste

Stamp

Is that a quote from Immanuel Cant?

Animals as Elements: 35-36 Bromine Krill and Krypton Kestrel

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Bromine is a trace element that is very closely related to its sister element Iodine, the one can often be mistaken for the other. It often was used a part of pesticides but as it causes ox one depletion is was banned. It is now used in anti-convulsion and anti-seizure drugs. As it is found in small amounts in ocean water, but also in high concentration in salt lakes, Krill is a good match. Krill isn’t really one species, but a series of different very small crustaceans of the order Euphausiacea. They do however seem almost diluted within the oceans they are so small.

Krypton might seem like its the weakness of superman (that was Kryptonite) it is in reality a inert gas, mostly free of radiation and unable to react with other elements unless under very specific circumstance. Like all of the noble gasses thus far Krypton is depicted as a bird. The kestrel is bird of prey that feeds often on small rodents and lizards and sometimes larger prey. I matched it with Krypton because they both start with the letter K.

Self on self is not selfish but hallowed

We can take the idea of a self care – as one of a worker day module. It’s a unit. A schedule break that’s given, almost permission to be away from the task at hand. Not though, it’s actually a task in itself. A part of the machines mechanics. A very scheduled part of your own schedule. Taking your enjoyment, joy, break, and using your new found out to make sure you are doing the other things. It’s not given as a relationship its a part of the day in itself. It’s giving yourself a task for doing something different to your current one so you can focus on the current one better.

Like in coding, we are given threads when sufficiently advanced to use. Spacing pointers and their operations so that the whole program becomes, more effective. Using the computer’s computing power to compute something else while it waits for the rest of the task to be ready.

You can enjoy this threaded task. It’s not wrong. It’s not a bad thing to be self-aware of the task you have getting draining. Using up more of you than you need. You need to tame this beast.

“This task needs to be done so I must find a way”

Are you though taking a break from you? Or are you doing it for the task? Is this task bigger than you? Is it worth more than you? Are you working the task or is this task working you?

I’m not saying you should not be doing something you enjoy. You should. But let yourself enjoy it more. Don’t worry about your other task. Let yourself love yourself. Let go of the idea you are doing this for your task. You are doing it for you. Only for you.

You are worth it. You are the one doing this task. You are essential to this task being completed. You are the one with the training, the knowledge, the skills. You give this task your essence. You are in control of how well it is done. You are in control of how efficient it is. You are doing this self-care for you.

You are not your task. Never.

Aquasoliverium

Milk of the talisman has dripped

Dripping / sudden wet

Splashed with dark red

Blood / essence warm

I blow on it once

Then you twice

Sprinkle the salt and sugar

Crystals of / cubiform California

Then we set

Clasp the way

Horse and the hay

It’s a Thursday

Week day / am I insane?

I start to see the new

And death the old

Cold mountains fold

Hooves heavy and thunder

Storms plunders

Juxtapositions a sundered

Boutique / Monique

Neigh whiny

I am now your Philly

Sigh

A cup of coffee
A blessed relief
Orange sunrise
for me to drink
you there with me
and the kitchen sink

sugar and honey and all the hope
the flowers and bees wandering in
trees with my fellow rock and sand beneath my toes
the wonderful water-flow that flows

a gully of pure distance
trickling through the sunlight in the distance
peace of mind and gathered moss
Indonesia and Samuel Frost
Ethiopia in the springtime
a ballad in the meantime

your see a statesman who wishers forth
the truth of it all is what you sort
the distance atmosphere will not sing
as the winds in the trees are metaphor for the din
sugar and honey and all the hope
mountains of skyward reach
they erode with a itch

you know the perfect place now
the place of peace
join me in there in your dreams when you can
as I will wait for all eternity

a hospitable home in the forrest near the beach
with limestone benches and wooden breech
sugar and honey and all the hope

its what I dream
its what I know
its when I know it
and how I show it
I want to win
But I only lose

sigh out loud and wish you where there
you will be there eventually
just live until then

Animals as Elements: 33-34 Arsenic Arsnobacteria, Selenium Tuna

Arsenic is a odd little element that is usually known for its toxic effect on most carbon based life. It is however often used in semiconductors along with Gallium. There is an extremophile bacterium that loves arsenic-rich environments (generally volcanic fissures, tailing pools from mining) it is called unimaginatively Arsenobacteria.

Selene is a goddess of the moon, selenium was thus called so because of her, and Tellurium which had just been discovered and named for the Earth. Clearly having similar properties meant it should be called with a similar naming convention, and since Tellurium is heavier and us in the set of elements below Selenium, the name became obvious. So, what the hell does this have to do with Tuna? Selenium is a powerful antioxidant in Tuna especially, though clearly too much is toxic just like too much of anything is!

Nutshells and a robots knees

Day 1:

Im standing in the battleground.

I see naught but nutshells and robot knees. They’re all dead.

It’s not like the sun to be this cold. 

I’m searching for food. For a spare battery pack. My body hurts so much. Blood and oil drop from different parts of it. The muddy field is full of scaps and scars of a long fought battle. A stalemate has been in force for just one day now.

I’m Adam. It’s a stupid name. I don’t have a better one. 

It’s a good thing I kept my hands. Otherwise I might not write.

Everyone knows the Robots led a rebellion. I’m one of the cyborgs sent to fight it. I was dead. Like all the rest of us.

The robots realeased a virus. A deadly one. Killed a lot of people. Left me and a lot more people in hospitals. Grasping a straws for life. Then, me and all of those in my ward. Anyone who still had proper hands and knees. The virus was designed by the robots to attack our skeletons. Eat away at our cartilage and then the bones themselves. Slowly reducing our ability to walk. To fight. To live. 

You would think, maybe they should go for the blood? Or the brain? Apparently the robots didn’t think it effectively would get their point across. Robots didn’t want to kill humanity. After all we were their parents. Their creators. Killing us? It was not the option they wanted. Even with their advances and intelligence they wanted humanity to survive. If for no other reason than because deep down, they loved us in a strange robot like way.

I’m walking on a trail of various pieces of what some may call junk. Not really junk. It’s all bits of cyborg body. Or robot body. Or expolded bits that no one could recognize. In between it all their is naught but mud. Mud. Dark, brown, sticky. 

It took less than three hours to create this field of the dead. The battle lasted just long enough to kill thirty thousand cyborg humans. Twice as many robots. 

The man who came to me. The one I mentioned earlier. Or did I forget? These cyborg bodies he said, they will give you life. Let you fight back. Give humanity one last chance to really fight these robots. 

Of course I knew being a cyborg was just making, and adding to a inevitable end. I’m not stupid. The fact is, any second now my cybernetic body will get shut down codes.

Animals as Elements: 31-32, Gallium Dodo, Germanium Boar

The Dodo is famous for being the bird that became extinct. Gallium does not occur as a free element (only as an alloy, usually with zinc or aluminium in bauxite) and is a reasonably soft pliable metal. It’s used in most consumer electronics in semiconductors. Why do they belong together? Gallium is also used to keep the crystal structure of plutonium stable. Plutonium has limited uses, expect in nuclear medicine and thermonuclear bombs. Without gallium, we wouldn’t be able to keep thermonuclear weapons stable. Also, we would likely be less close to mutually assured destruction.

Germanium is a hungry element much like oxygen or carbon; it forms binds to a high number of other elements. Thus a boar is a good match for this element.

Another site update!

Hi all you awesome readers! I have made some updates to the site again!
Note my about page has changed most of all. Also the default font to something a little more Dyslexia friendly (I have dyslexia so makes sense).

Its not much of a update. I hope to get the site looking even better in due course, but it may take longer than I anticipated.
Also expect some new essays soon.

All my dreamwork stuff will soon appear in the archives! From my old dreamwork blog. New Dreamwork posts may appear in essays from time to time. I will also be turning it into a ebook! I just have to work out a sensible structure and format to put it in. At the moment its pretty chaotic! Nevertheless you will be able to get it from me for a small amount of money in the near future.

In reading and writing,
Anne

Specks (But I do)

Freaked with pink specks above the wing, oh Pegasus

Length of your abroad sailing on that rack

I struck by saturnism, a soiled being of mirth

Naught, uncle verily sold unto me a fandangle disposition

Oh mooncalf I hear you spake, the numbing cheat would but be a faster expiry

Fain I am, I call

Gods acer, you be in amount regardless

Such day, yea I drink from young blood of ye?

Neigh, it be but ague to your conistution

Slipshod my night, soon but I do.